who's there...

it's interesting to see people from everywhere is reading my blog..i thought only a few of my friends are stalking me, but apparently not. i know there are readers from the following places:

• shah alam, malaysia (who accessed my blog from UITM ar? say hello faster!!)
• clifton springs, australia
• mangere
• wanganui
• palmerston north (from massey uni...this must be you lucy darling!)
• westfield (err..i dunno anyone from christchurch..who are you?)
• the rest are all from auckland. but a few of you aucklanders freak me out. who is using woosh? are you stalking my blog? i get like, 5+ visits from you a day!! LOL

everyone who visits my blog MUST say hello to me ok!!!

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randomness aside, i cant find my chemmat463 book -.-" i can never seem to find anything in my room..well, to be honest, i'm not surprised. coz my room's in a mess and i have to tippy toe to move around >"< i'm surprised that my parents haven't given me the "talk" yet. HURHUR. but i'm gonna go for a wee shopping trip on friday to get those boxes to keep all my notes and stack them up somewhere. 3.5 years of accumulated notes is just....not good.

oh yeah, i burst into tears this morning on the way to the ferry :( i felt so stressed and with the lack of sleep and everything, i wasn't feeling my best. i just...cried. then mum was like "OMG! what's wrong with you???" and yeah..i just kept quiet and tried to get rid of all the tears. AND then, of all things, my contact lens went UP my right eye and i hard a hard time trying to get it out with tears and everything. BLAHH! what a good start to my day...

but at least, 2 exams down, and i feel like i deserved a breather so i've been bumming around since i got home until now. even allowed myself to watch prison break :)

thanks to everyone for the best wishes :) love you all long time!! MWAH MWAH MWAH!!!

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sometimes, things of the past that has been buried should be left buried. they shouldn't be dug up again, because hurtful and insulting remarks will be thrown back at you, and painful memories will come back haunting you.

i guess money isn't a big deal, even though it's quite a bit of money - i think it's best to leave it where i've left it. it's just not worth making contact, and being thrown back out of your comfort zone, again and again.

from now on, i will not dig up anymore of my past (anything that is painful), and i will go out of my way to earn back the money i've lost during this holiday. it's not gonna be difficult, but it'll take effort.

some people are just way too shallow, so it's just not worth doing it anymore.

what's better for me now, is to try to concentrate on last minute studying, instead of bawling my eyes out to release stress and whatnot. it's not helping too much, because every 2 minutes or so, i'll start bawling again.

i feel like quitting uni already and go achieve my dreams sooner :(

99% dead-ed

I AM VERY STRESSED ARRRRR!!!

I ONLY HAVE TOMORROW LEFT TO CRAM FOR THREE PAPERS!!

HOWWWWW?!?!!?! -.-"

why is my exam timetable so terrible?!

ps: I NEED A MIRACLE. SO PLEASEEE PRAY FOR ME OK!!!

twist turn and roll. then grunt. ungh!

read my title above. that's what i did for a couple of hours until the sun was up this morning. i went to bed at around 2.30, thinking i'll get about 7 hours of sleep before waking up for church. little did i know that i still had too much caffeine in my body.

i lay in bed. 5 minutes had gone by...ticktockticktock...1 hour....3 hours...*decides to stop looking at the time* "oh great, i'm starving now!", i thought to myself as i lay frustrated in bed. so i started thinking of all the delicious food sitting in the pantry, and was deciding what to eat for breakfast in the morning. i think i decided on porridge with baby anchovies and dried scallops with salted egg...and i think that's when i finally fell asleep.

my alarm woke me up at 9.15 this morning, and i turned it off with half closed eyes. everytime i blinked, my eyes hurt so i decided to sleep in this morning. i told dad that i cant make it to church due to lack of sleep, and told him to stand in for my offering duty, while my eyes were shut tight. they eventually left for church, i had a few hours of sleep, and finally woke up when they came home with lunch for me :) i'm loved!

and after much mucking around, i am sitting in front of my laptop once again, ready to repeat the viscious cycle once again. study - eat - study - study - study - workout - procrastinate - study - procrastinate - eat - study - tv - eat - study - study - procrastinate - sleep.

t00dles my love.

ps: 4 more days until i recognise the smell of freedom once again!

moral of the story: dont drink coffee + tea after taking caffeine pills, unless you plan to stay up all night!

poopoo

i feel like shit, i look like shit, i dont want to do shit.

my life is shit (for now at least, until exams are over and done!)

my eyes are like chinky (chinese slit eyes) due to lack of sleep, and it's red on the outline, and puffy too. i'm gonna put like 10947309 layers of foundation and eyeliner when i go out tmrw..to church that is.

i still have SO much to do but i have so little time. i am yet to get started on exam papers.

this is badddddd :(

stepper...w00tw00t!

w00t!

i love my new stepper (even though i got lost TWICE when i went to pick it up this morning)! i've climbed 1000 steps today on 2 separate occasions, and golly gosh it's hard work!!

10 steps = 1 calorie, so i've only burned 100 calories today. that isn't even enough to burn off one piece of roti canai (malaysian pancake)! shocking -.-"

but i guess it's a pretty good way for me to work out while watching telly and while taking breaks from studying. it's kinda refreshing after sitting down for a few hours....


it's kinda challenging as well because you do have to maintain balance (a little la, not too much) when you move your body weight from side to side. it gets really difficult when you try to do it at high speed, but i'm not up to that level yet.

i think this will really help with my stamina :)

time goes ticktockticktock...

it's amazing to see how little babies grow up so quickly..

is it really quickly, or does time just fly by without us actually realising it?

i was just browsing through some photos on bebo, and i can literally see my team leader's baby growing!! from a wee one she was back in nov, until now. that's about 6-7 months in total, but she looks so different from when she was in nov!

in nov, she still looked like a wee baby. but now, she looks like a toddler! she's got the cutest yet cheekiest smile ever! i love looking at her pics, coz she's just so cute, and the way she smiles...it just makes my heart melt!

she's coming along on our trip to rotorua as well, so i'll try my best to make friends with her then ;)

ps: i'm not posting up any of her photos, coz i dont think that's very nice, but if you really want to have a look, you can go to: http://am3zster.bebo.com and under my friends list, look for darryl. and if possible, click on his other half's bebo page as well coz she has more recent photos of the wee one.

i'm off to bed. i really cant be bothered doing any more questions for chemmat coz i've already spent one whole day doing question after question. i hope this'll help in the exam!! nite..

christine, go rock the exam tomorrow ok!! good luck babe!