wow wheeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

it's 4.37am now and i'm sitting in front of this squarish screen typing up some random shit while eating "pan mee". i haven't got enough brain cells to figure out what it's called in english, so let's all just be happy with "pan mee" ok?

today must've been the weirdest day in my whole 22 years of life. i spent 3-4 hours crying and sobbing non-stop, i spent 1 hour having suicidal thoughts, and then proceeded to spend another 45 minutes staring into a bath tub half filled with water and the hair dryer which i've pulled out. next thing i know, i had my bath towel on the bathroom's tiles, and i was lying flat on the tiles feeling the cold against my skin.

and i was txting like 5 people at the same time, talking about different things, like how a "fat lazy bitch" (quote Daddle) pulled a sickie on her last 2 days of work, about how i dont want to live anymore and apologizing to Tina and Stefan for having to cancel out on our strawberry picking adventure :(

then evening came along, and before i knew it, i was sitting in RB's car happily chatting away about our soon to be very interesting night! and next thing i know, stefan's standing beside RB's car and then we were in and the alcohol started coming.

totally unrelated: while i was slurping my pan mee, i had the brilliant-est idea! i shall buy lots of laughing gas and store it in my room. everytime dad and i are about to break into an argument, i'll just sniff a small canister and then go "argue" with dad while trying to control my fits of laughter. that'll keep him happy for a while, until he starts wondering what the heck i'm getting high on -.-"

anyway, no laughing has or NOX tonight. the store ran out :( but you know, after some stupid asian herbal shot i had, i was in fits of giggles, i think. i was sitting at the dark stairway with stefan giggling about EVERYTHING and thinking about it now, it wasn't even funny :P (ok, that asian herbal shot i had is called Jagermeister and it's the most foul alcohol i've ever tasted!)

my head went all spinny spinny after that shot so i just sat around giggling until i "sobered" up again but just as i was sobering up, we had to leave to head to town and RB and i had our pre-packed shots (tequila and lime) and it was DISGUSTING as!

then crazy dancing started...sweaty...hot...rashes....left my house keys in stefan's apartment got tina and nancy had to wait with me for like 20 minutes (sorry and thx girls) and a shower later, i'm home, slurping on my "pan mee" while drinking lots of water.

and it'll be bed time soon after.

i cant be arsed typing any longer, so nite nite