we're off to rotovegas (yes, again!) and mt. ruapehu tmr :D :D
*happee happee joy joy*
question is, to ski or not to ski?
hm...
but with my leaky nose, i dont think i'll be skiing. dont wanna come back half dead or something since i need to work on wed, and be a first aider after that. dont wanna be the one who needs first aid instead, do i?
anyway, will be back on tuesday ;)
love yous all!
yesterday was really fun!
woke up at 4am and worked from 5-11.30am. it was pretty crazy at the pools from half9 onwards, but since i was in the big pools, i was pretty lucky - being left out from all the screams and shouts from kids and crazy giggles!
came home after work and had to send my sis to botany so she could hang out with her friends. came back home again, and mucked around and then took a nap. 30 minutes later, i got woken up to pick my sis. so i had to go get ready and went out the door again.
had a really early dinner coz we had to be in church from 5.30 till sometime past 8 to help out at the conference. got to church at 5.10pm, and a kind soul showed us where the kindy was :D little cute kiddies started streaming in at 5.45pm, and i started playing with kids around 6.10pm when we closed the door.
there was this one kid in particular whom we thought was a girl. he had really long hair, longer than mine, and were tied into 2 ponytails. we pretty much assumed he was a girl, and then when my sis was looking after him, he said "pee pee" so i took him to the toilet.
at this time, i still thought he was a girl. so he stood by the toilet bowl with his butt facing me (basically standing like how a man would pee). so i picked him up and sat him down on the toilet bowl, and a girl who is another helper, standing behind me went "errrrr..............." and the kid went "nooo...". i looked down and went O.O and realized he had a thingy. so i picked him up again and let him stand to shoot into the toilet bowl.
the other helper and i were just like "err...ok, this is weird" but in my head i was just going "omg wtf omg wtf omg wtf omg wtf" so yeah. we took him back out and he started crying so the leader took over to look after him. then later on, i went to speak to the leader and asked if she knew about the kid being a boy, and she said "yes, after taking him to the toilet this afternoon. before that, we had a bit of a debate"
-_-
omg. what's up with the pony tails???
but apart from that, we had a really fun night! i had this girl, called Sophie. she's the cutest little thing ever. i know her mum coz they go swimming quite often so she wasn't too shy with me. we played with bouncy balls, then went over to play play-doh. at one point, i made a teddy bear with a cookie cutter and she started pulling the teddy's head, hands and legs apart. talk about violence at a young age! LOL
and then everything else i made, she'll have them cut in half. omg -.-" hahaha but it was all too cute! then i made a big fat ugly snake, and started chasing her around with it, and she was basically running away to the other side of the room. hehe, then she took some chairs and blocked my path! LOL it's just sooo cute!
had a really good night with all the kids - most of them were really well behaved, except for 2 little boys who started throwing pens everywhere. but they got sent to the naughty corner, ala super nanny and they actually behaved after that!
think all the parents came to get their kids around 8.15, and we left around 8.30pm to go home.
it was a really long day, coz i was running around from 4am to 8.30am, with a 30mins nap in between. after showering, i just KO-ed on my bed.
heh...
wouldnt mind volunteering to look after 3-4 years old kids again. they're just SO cute!
twas my brother's birthday on friday, but we postponed his birthday dinner to tonight. all went really well during the day from church to lunch to grocery shopping to everything else.
i bought a cake for my bro as his present since i couldnt think of anything better to get him. anyway, we went out for dinner, and on our way there, dad was talking about cutting our budget a little, mainly to cut down on buying unnecessary food like sweets, chips and etc.
it didn't affect me much, but it did to a certain extent. i mean, really, how much do we spend on that a month? i know i usually buy my own junk food, but to have it smacked into your face with a "no junk food" ruling, that's a little insane...so anyway, dinner went on with me sitting at the corner being rather quiet.
then on the way home, dad continued on the talk. this time about us kids taking too long to shower, spending too much on power and water, and wasting money unnecessarily. fine, i understand that because, why waste money right?
then my mum joined in the "talk". dad did it in a really calm and casual manner. knowing mum, she takes things to a whole new level. calm and casual is now yells and anger. it's not fun. why? because almost everything that they're saying, is not my fault. my sisters are the one who spend 30 minutes in the bathroom, leaving their radio on when no one's in the room or even leaving their room light on when they're not in the room. for me, i spend about 15-20 mins max in the bathroom, including moisturizing my face and etc. i dont leave my room light on, and i dont have a radio in my room.
i pointed that out. but i got ignored.
mum kept going on and on about money, then all of a sudden she said "i dont know why you keep buying things! you're just wasting money!" i got really angry about that because we've been through this talk before - she has no right to control how i spend my money because it's my OWN money which i worked for. i dont take any form of allowance from them, so all my spending money is from my salary or from trademe, or from my savings.
i reminded her that i earn my money and i spend my own money. i then said that when my bro was at my age, he was still 100% dependent on my parents. he got allowance from them, his college/ uni fees were all paid for, his shopping money were provided by my parents and basically everything was provided by my parents. i, on the other hand, depend on them for food, the house and power and water and stuff, and petrol for the car (which i contribute sometimes too). my shopping expenses and everything else is from my own working money....
what right does she have to say about me spending $45 on a pair of shoes? what right does she have to even comment that i spend too much (which i think i dont)? i am for more independent than my brother, and even if i am running low on money, i would never go to them to get money. i've never done it before, even though they offer. i just dont like taking money from them.
anyway, at that point, i started crying. because..i just think it's unfair. i mean, they supported my bro through uni and until he got a proper job. i only get partial support now, and they still want to nag me. so i went to my room and went to shower. then my mum shouted from outside the bathroom "you bought the cake for your brother, come and celebrate it with him!", and i yelled back" YOU WANT TO EAT YOU EAT LA!"
had my shower, then my bro came upstairs to tell me to come down to cut the cake and blablabla. i felt really stink at that time (and i still do), because it's his birthday, and his sister isn't celebrating it with him. but i ignored him anyway. mum apologized from outside my room for wanting to control how i spend my money, but i ignored her anyway. because the way she said sorry was as if she was scolding me.
i heard my dad telling her off for bringing up the topic about me spending my money and etc when i came out of the shower. again, i felt bad because i dont want to add to mum's stress, but you know? i cant please everyone and make myself feel unhappy. i am the kind of person who tries to please everyone, but myself. in the end, i find myself digging a hole that keeps getting deeper and when i try to climb out, i start struggling.
it's time for me to think for myself too, and it's time for others to stop putting their stress on me. i find myself always the one to try to sort everything out, and to worry for others and putting myself in a situation where i get hurt in the end. it's really time to stop all of these things.
i hope my family realises that i am more than what they think i am, and stop releasing their stress/ anger on me. i am not the one they should pick on every single time...
almost everytime something goes wrong at home (like if there's a stain on the carpet or something like that), my mum or dad will almost certainly put the blame on me before even asking. it makes me sick.
i have feelings too mum and dad...
woohoo!
i just made a phone call to a swim school and they want me to go shadow with one of the swimming teachers in 2 weeks time. fun!
shadow means, you stay with a teacher, and basically be her assistant for the duration of the class.
kinda scary in a way for me, coz i havent done lessons in a while...time to dig out my good ol' swim teacher's book and refresh myself on some terminologies :D
if i do get it, this job will be for summer break, on top of my lifeguard job! thought it'll be kinda boring to work as a lifeguard all summer long..and i wanted to try something new.
and also to see if i could do this long term....and see if it really is my ambition to run a swimming school!
wish me all the best!
ps: i've been feeling quite sluggish and down over the last week - i dont know why, but i just feel like that..
i almost cried this morning. i'm just not really feeling good? like, i dont feel like talking or anything. i just wanna be alone.
i went to see this lady at the science student centre to discuss about replacing one of my papers with a math paper. she said NO almost immediately because "chemmat211 is a core paper, and what's the use of the uni sending students out into the industry without completing their core papers?"
when she said that, i could feel my heart shattered into a million pieces, there was no way to piece them back together. i could feel tears rushing to my eyes, but i held them back. i remained silent for a while, and she kept talking about laurie allowing students to do this because he feels pressured and because he has a soft heart.
then she looked up and must've seen how upset i looked, coz she then said "what i can do is to speak to the associate dean but she's away now until early october. i'll talk to her and see if she thinks my decision is too harsh, but in my opinion, i wont let you replace chemmat211 with maths208"
*sigh*
if i'm not approved to do maths208, i'll be staying for another semester. so i asked her if it's possible to put my course on hold for maybe a year or something and come back to continue doing it and she said yes. if i really have to, i think i'll take a year off from uni and go work and travel at the same time. but i think my dad'll want me to finish off my degree. but you know what? i dont care what people want me to do. it's my life i'm leading so why should people tell me what to do?
i always get things like "see! i told you to do computer science and you didnt want to. now you dont even like food science!" thrown at me and it's really annoying coz how does he know i would've liked computer science if i did it? i'm no good at computers at all..why computer science?! there isn't even a demand for computer science in nz!
but i really dont care anymore. a degree ain't everything, but of course, it would be better to have one right? so people, please pray that the associate dean will approve for me to do maths208 ok? if i do maths 208, i'll finish my degree in february coz i can do summer school, but if i dont, i'll finish in july which means all my work and travel plans can be thrown into the drain.
remember to pray!!
come to think of it, you guys will have to wait until the wedding (or for the photos to those not attending the wedding) to see my finished dress :p
i've finally finished it today, and it looks quite different from the picture now. hehehe~ i changed 2 things about it, but i'm not gonna reveal it till another...week and a half!
:p
sorry! if not, no surprise laaa!
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dont you hate it when people tail-gate you while you're driving? some stupid asian guy was tail-gating me when i went to pick my sis up from her tutor's place. i purposely went at 50km/hr to piss him off and at one point, i went at 45km/hr (and we were going up hill to, mind you). i usually travel around 60km/hr but when people start tail-gating me, i go slow on purpose.
i really dont get why people do it!
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my colleague told me this morning that there's this asian guy who likes to stretch and do taichi in front of the pool in his speedo. he goes up to the gym, then comes down to the pools and strip to his speedo. he'll then walk to his usual spot and start doing whatever he does and when he's done, he'll put his clothes back on and go home. no, he doesnt swim at all but sometimes he goes in the sauna for 3 minutes or something.
anyway, that guy was stretching yesterday, and he was wearing a rather lose speedo. my colleague walked past him and saw something not quite right....and a few seconds later, my colleague realised that his dick was hanging out of his speedo! as this guy doesnt speak english, my colleague figured out that the easiest and simplest way to tell him that his dick is hanging out is to tap his shoulders and point down there.
..and that was what my colleague did. *taptap point* and the guy looked down and went *gasps* and proceeded to tuck it back in his speedo right in front of my colleague and in public -.-" and then he continued stretching -_________-
some people are just so shameless!
some time ago, before i started working, this same guy whose dick wanted to look at the world fell into the pool while stretching! LOL. i find it rather hilarious, coz really, how do you fall into the pool when there's a platform that's about 15inches high?
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the same colleague mentioned above also agreed to write me a gym programme :D yay! he asked me if i have any medical conditions, and i said yes. "totally unfit". hahaha
