Artist: Hillsong
Title: One Way

You are the way, the truth and the light,
We live by faith and not by sight for You,
We're living all for You

That's part of the song that I really like, and it's my form of encouragement now :)

One way,
Jesus, you're the only one that I could live for,
One way,
Jesus, you're the only one that I could live for!

wheeeeeeeee!

wacky ol' ChRstnE! says:
i think i'm gonna take coffee
wacky ol' ChRstnE! says:
-.-"
wacky ol' ChRstnE! says:
after i cannot sleep
- amy - says:
WHAT?!
wacky ol' ChRstnE! says:
i really kantoi
wacky ol' ChRstnE! says:
i dunno how
wacky ol' ChRstnE! says:
- amy - says:
i thought you cannot take coffe one?!
wacky ol' ChRstnE! says:
tea?
- amy - says:
drink tea laa
- amy - says:
yeah~
wacky ol' ChRstnE! says:
you think tea will work?
wacky ol' ChRstnE! says:
omgoondess
wacky ol' ChRstnE! says:
yes
- amy - says:
should be laa. try!!
wacky ol' ChRstnE! says:
i'm finally a NORMAL student
wacky ol' ChRstnE! says:
lol

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i dont know how she does it, but throughout her whole uni life, she has never relied on coffee or any energy drinks to stay up. NEVER. and she can pull an all nighter..just like that. amazing~~ she's probably the only person i know who relies on natural high to stay awake :p

today, we'll talk about..

...money!

yes, money! moolah!

to begin with, let me tell you a little about the what i was taught in regards to money and savings when i was younger. growing up in malaysia, i know that everyone needs to work hard. really hard. money cant just grow on trees or fall down from the sky. so i was taught to save money, and only spend money when you can really afford it, or even better, only spend it on something you really need.

my parents worked really hard to be where they are now. i remember my mum was back at work 1 week after giving bith to my sister coz my parents' business was blooming at that time. and even i, at a young age of 9, would stay up over the weekends to help my parents do some work, coz they just didn't have enough time to get everything done, on top of all the man power that they had. i was given an easy task: stamp dates on promotional vouchers.

anyway, my point is, people have to work hard for money. of course, some people are just lucky and they win some lucky draws or lotto or something. but the thing is, how much have these people spent, buying their "lucky tickets" week after week?

since i started living in nz, i realised that the people here in general, do not care much about working hard. the people here spend money on useless things, like their friday night beers and expensive dinner, going on holidays when they cant even afford it and maybe spending $200 or more on fireworks for guy fawkes.

i know, you should buy somethings to have fun too, but the reality is, can you really afford it? or are you using government's money for all these things? i saw so many families at the warehouse the other day, buying big boxes of fireworks. see, if you buy in small amounts, you can still have fun right? what do you get out of the fireworks? you go ohh and ahh at them, but what do you gain out of it at the end of the day? it's really seeing your money going up in smoke! might as well have the nice feeling of burning hard cold cash with a lighter!

now, let's talk about alcohols. i used to drink a little, occassionally. when i go out for dinner, i'll order a cocktail or something. now, a cocktail isn't exactly expensive, nor is it cheap. an average cocktail probably costs around $13. today, i ask myself this question: what did i get out of that? nothing. i go home with a red face, a little more damaged liver and a whole lot of blood pumping through my body rapidly. that's about it. oh, i enjoyed the taste a little, but it'll probbaly taste better without the alcohol. afterall, a cocktail is a mixture of fruits and alcohol, no? i might as well make a smoothie or a fruit punch for myself..

the average person living in nz (and elsewhere) looks forward to friday. why? because that is the evening they get to go out and have some beer or wine, and have a nice and posh expensive dinner. now, how much are you going to spend on something like that, over a year? friday after friday you go out, and you spend maybe about, $40 per person? it's just digging into your account, deeper and deeper.

really, who am i to talk about money when i spend quite a bit of money myself?

hmm, now, a very popular one. travelling. who doesnt want to travel overseas right? i do, but i dont have enough money to go now. or rather, if i do, i'll come back with NOTHING. so, since i cant afford it now, i'm not going on a holiday, even though i would really to go on one. i'm not going to march up to the bank and ask for a holiday loan. that sounds totally ridiculous to me! why would i want to go enjoy my holiday while worrying about how to pay my loan back? i would rather earn the money, go on a nice holiday and give a myself a pat on the back and say "well done! you worked hard for this, so here's your well deserved holiday." isn't that WAY better?

i just dont understand how people live and spend their money.....so different to what i was taught when i was younger -_-

now, to justify myself about spending, i DO have a small business of my own. so when i earn a little money from all the hardwork (it's really hardwork sourcing for a supplier and thinking of the right items to import!), i do splurge a little, and put the rest in my savings account. and when i splurge, i dont spend like $100, i usually spend $30 on a top, and that's about it. if it's any more expensive, i'll crinkle my nose and forget about it, or come back to it again when it's on sale.

so yah. that's view on people and how they spend their money. ridiculous, shall i say?

but, no matter how much treasure we store on earth, it belongs to God at the end of the day :) and these are only wordly things. we're not going to bring these treasures with us when we die anyway!

and that ends my "i'm so stressed" rant for the day. thank you for your attention!

the miracle that is...

CAFFEINE!

what am i to do without caffeine? i'll probably have to resort to using super glue to keep my eyes open or electrocute myself every 5 minutes to make sure i'm awake -_-

too bad coffee no longer works for me...i have to drink BLACK V now just to stay awake and concentrate on my work - never felt so good untilk i drank BLACK V yesterday. ahh, the miracles of caffeine, it comes with a price :S

i drank BLACK V around 6.30pm yesterday, and it lasted until around, 2am and after that i resorted to something mild, so i had tea. by 4am, my brain was a total mush, so i decided to go to sleep. first, my mp3 player died on me because it was left on the whole night the previous night. so fine, no music. next, it was me torturing myself, thinking about so many things, and since my brain was working non-stop, i couldnt fall asleep.

now, i dont usually have that problem of falling asleep, unless there's still caffeine in me. so gee, the BLACK V must be some pretty strong stuff! from 6.30pm to 4am and its effects were still going?! hmm.......so i was left on my bed, tossing and turning, thinking about a gazibillion things.

and because i have been such a pig in the few days (sleeping way too much), i decided to leave the curtains open a little, so that i will not be able to sleep till too late in the afternoon. so i left quite a big gap open, and well, it worked. i woke up when i had to.

*sigh*

the detrimental things that i do to myself, just for the exams......................exams are really hazardous to health -_-

shopping, anyone?

DARLINGS!!

we'll be smelling sweet sweet freedom by the following weekend and well, since i have exams on saturday, and start work on monday, i only have sunday off. so........

ANYONE WANNA GO SHOPPING WITH ME???????
[i'll probably have the car - so i dont mind driving]

c'mon girls!! ms. shopaholic is itching to go shopping :D

i've been eating so much, i dare not weigh myself :$ every morning (afternoon really..) when i wake up, i'll tell myself to go weigh myself, but after thinking all the pro and cons, i'll refuse to go :p i'm probably happier not knowing how fat i've become after consuming all those junk.

the only thing that comforts me is that i go swimming. well, i went swimming twice this week, but it's not enough to get rid of the calories that i've been consuming. eep!

so far, this morning, i've had a packet of instant noodles with one egg, a cup of lemon and honey which mommy made for me, and a little pot of yoghurt. and i still feel like eating!! nooo....

dont even get me started on yesterday night. i had mcdonalds after swimming. and i had coke too *dies*

ARRRGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!

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i didnt take many photos at Gilainne's party. but here are a few :)

this, is Christine, the bendy-woman. *rofl*

she won the limbo competition. heheeee...ain't Matt lucky??

HAHAHAHHAa. i'm so gonna get whacked for this. hehehehe. but i'm sure Mei supports me! LOL

congratz girl ^^

Managed to steal a photo with Sherry, the really cute witch! i basically forced her to take this picture with me. hehehe.

i miss my pet mouse :( i used to play with mousey when i was stressed, and the stress will be gone. i used to play with mousey when i was upset, and the upset-ness will be gone.

then came dorkus (picture). dorkus was different to mousey :( and i didnt like dorkus. dorkus was very...different. he..or rather "it" has a gender confusion problem. we were told it was a female, as female mice tend to be cleaner. but then, we later on found out that dorkus was a male!! one very stinky male it sure was! so we gave dorkus away, coz dorkus made our garage smell realllyyy bad and my sister hated him too.

[where on earth is my photo with mousey?!?!?!?!]

Now, this is another pet that i miss dearly. teddy. my cousin's dog that is totally abandoned :( sheesh. wish i could kidnap it and smuggle it to nz!! teddy's a crazy dog, but she's very loving underneath all that crazy run-around-the-house, i-like-to-crap-and-pee-anywhere-i-like, and the i-love-chasing-lizards behaviour. hopefully when i'm back next year, teddy will still be there...

see what the stress is doing to me?!?! i didnt even go for CG today :( *sigh* i feel hopeless, unmotivated and USELESS above all. i got through 20 pages of chemistry notes today. and what else did i do? i TOOK A STUPID 2 hours nap, even though i had 8 hours of sleep last night!!

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! i'll never get ANYTHING done with the speed i'm going *sobs*